haiz. i wish i didnt have a handphone. i hate e feeling of looking expectantly at ur hp waiting fer tt one person to msg u. but e person would of course, never do.i would go watch tv and then every advertisement i would run back to my room and peep at my handphone. then when i dun see any msg, my heart will hav this sinking feeling.then i would go watch tv again. during advertisement that time i would run back to my room and tell myself, if i still dun see any msg this time, i'll stop looking. yeah rite. e next thing u know, im running back and forth from my mum's room to my room during advertisement. dun ask mi why dun i jus take my hp over to my mum's room. e thing is, i dunno either. im pathetic i know. some ppl u wan so badly to msg u but dey jus dun seem to want to pick out some time to even send u a msg while others whom u jus dun wan to see their msg, they keep msging u non-stop. not to mention about their long and childish msg. maybe its not larr, but im jus seriously suffering from withdrawal of _______.izit even possible for an older guy to ever like a younger gurl? esp one as childish as mi? esp one who's voice is so loud over the phone tt he gotta tone down his phone's volume. i seriously feel like crying now. he obviously doesnt care! while mi? pathetic childish mi? im going on n on about him. seriously, wads e matter with mi!? like jon said. life isnt all about sch. so why izit tt my life revolves ard nth but sch sch n more sch? i hate it when i feel like im so unlikeable. why izit tt evryone else has someone whu likes them and when i finally feel like i hav tt feeling, it drifts off so fast?i hate this. why am i like tis? why?

tolerance was bliss, until 2003-04-20 10:47 p.m.