im trying my very best to stop tinking about him. evrytime my thots start veering towards him,i try to halt it.im trying. but tt doesnt means its working.

he was here. but he didnt look fer mi.okay, big deal.but lets just say.he didnt used to be like tis.and tts where e big deal part comes in.haiz. maybe sheena was right. im acting and talking and scolding him like he's my bf. which he definitely isnt. and im shure he wunt be anymore.urgh. so..izit gd or bad?

talcum powder smells so good.-whiffs in- hah.im smelling pretty good. for once.yest's outing was okay i guess.could hav been better if it was jus e few of us tho.still, it was an okay day considering the fact tt i didnt hav much of an impression of it anw.was feeling so detached frm e scene.and..not relle feeling anything.

some quality gurls time out would do mi lots of good.i dunt want to be so deprived of fun jus bcux im hopelessly on e verge of breaking down.i wunt allow myself to.like my mum said, if its meant to be, it will be.theres no pt in pushing things. and right now,im so sick and tired emotionally to even prod things.all those endless thinking and imagining has taken its toll on mi.i deserve it i guess.

tolerance was bliss, until 2003-06-24 10:15 p.m.