heyys ppl. back for a good reason--feeling bored. hahas. anw ppl are asking mi to reopen my blogg. relle resisting e idea. but hmm.. didnt know i had so many patroners[?]. oh well. but if i really do. den a few particular entries might hav to say byebye to my blogg. hahas.

hmm okk. lemme try ta rem some main impt things tt happened in e past few days? okk. kerrie extracted her tooth. gna put on braces soon. relle wonder how she'd look. but i tink she'll look relle prettie once she takes it out. den next time go out with her n maro, i'll feel so inferior. sad`

yepps. tt day i met with zee and s. hmms. zee had on tis weird hell of a nike cap. hahas. didnt wanna say it to his face tt he looks unsuited[?] in it. oh well. and sam spiked up his hair. looked slightly betta, but still not e sort tt id ever go after.yeah.and basically its jus me n z toking. sam pretanded to b dao n uninterested in evrything we were saying. den kezia walked past us. waved to her. thot it was no big deal. but ended up tt nite, sam msged me and asked me fer e name n age of my neighbour. asked me if she was nice, asked if whie he nv saw her b4. and i was pretty pissed off i can tell u tis much. would he PLEASE stop hitting on all my pretty frens? wad a royal jerk. wads more, he used to like me. imagine asking a gurl whom u used to like bout her neighbour whu jus so happened to be pretty! wtf. he's bloody irritating. and i was like. sam, deres many ppl whom u hav nv met in your entire life, so i dunt find it surprising tt uve never met her. and yes, shes nice. but i dunt tink tts got anything to do with u.hahs.

ok.next topic.eric.big sighh- i dunno wad to say/wad to do/wad to tink anymore.its like tis long story. haiz. ok shall narrate again. wad a drag.but well, here goes.

yest i got kinda pissed with him larh. cos he like nv msg me for whole day. well in e morning he did. but it was after np so i said i was too lazy to sms. and well, he happily took it as a cue fer him to stop msging me entirely cos he THOT i found him disturbing. and well, he jolly well stopped msging me for e whole day. and when i msged him, he told me he was at chomps2 eating n going to play ball later at 11plus.and i was like. u dunt seem to hav time for mi anymore, nvm. den he explained tt he was studying n blah shit. and asked mi bout my day. and due to an accumulation of agitation n my budding pms, i totally shot back at himsaying smth like. i dunt tink u even wan to know bout my day so dunt pretend tt ure even interested.if ure likedat, den i tink i dunt even matter tt much to u.u say wad miss me, its all crap lorh. tink ure too busy to even hav time for other things for example, me.dunt bother replying cos im sick of hearing ur meaningless apologies. tis is not reverse psychology or wadeva shit. im offing my phone.

and i offed my phone. for a little while anw* hahas. yeah and read his reply larh. he apologised a little.but said tt he sms me but i said i was too lazy to sms so he took it as a sign not to disturb me. den last time he sms me so much then i say i wan some time alone den now he sms me so litle den i say he sms me so little. wad do i wan him to do.. haiz. i dunno either! but dunt he get it? i didnt wan him to sms mi so much last time cos i didnt like him! but now. i dunno anymore. and e way he's acting,its making me more confused than ever. i need a guy whu can afford giving me time. whu can afford to be caring, who wants to meet me. who needs me.but on e other hand, not too pushy or sticky.where on earth can i find such a guy? in eric? i dunt tink so. seriously, if he dunt even bother asking me out anymore den i tink he's relle too busy to give time to such unimpt things in his life.if he has to wait till i tell him bout it, den i relle dunt see e point in even going out with him anymore.cos to him, it'd be more of a she-wants-to-go-out-with-me kinda thing. and dat would reduce my dignity as a gurl.but wadeva it is,im not gonna be tied down to him jus bcos i cant bear to.i will leave him one day. when ive had enuf of expecting too much frm him. frm feeling much more than i can grasp.

im in sucha pms mood now.grr/ but thanks to andre, he made my few days a little more bearable. he really cheers me up.if onlie eric cld be dere like andre when im feelin down. if onlie he has time for such things. he barely has time for a measly phone call.but weirdly, he has tonnes of time for bball, yet none for me. i get it now. wad else could i expect if im not one of his priorities. jus like zach, i was never.why? why izit always likedat?

anw on sat c dey all went out w/o me. humphs.so bad. dey openly discussed it in front of me ok. and well, i pretended i didnt mind larh. den she see mi like so uncomfortable den ask if i wanna go den of cos i went like no. obviously she asked for e sake of asking, dey didnt relle want me dere. so why bother going when all u'll ever be is an extra? and xh dey all organise an np chalet too.but im not going larh. cos as usual, no one asked. guess its probably a field-clique thing. used to be part of their clique but now, i shud hav guessed evrything wld be different.

haiz and i know sheena's little horrid secret now! hahas. tt gurll. didnt know shes capable of such an act.-wags finger- orh hor! but well.. dey're a couple larh. no surprises dere. good luck to her.

tolerance was bliss, until 2003-08-24 2:44 p.m.