hello world.its my bdae. does anyone even cares? now i really wonder.

maybe i had too high an expectation of it.i expectd surprises. i expected alot.

but now, which is midday of 21sept,ive oreadi officially stopped expecting anyone to pop surprises anymore.

basically. i cried in my room for tis half an hr? first, e seefatts shit.den eric.den my parents whu cudnt seem to b bothered.and no one to play badminton w me.no one whu wants to even spend time with me on my bdae.

no one.

except my softtoys.i knew dey were e most reliable.i knew it. ppl whom i thot cared hav all disappointed me.

ytd selling flag was kinda fun. me maro n chiki were sellg at fareast plaza. den darw n frens came along n helpd us a little.oh and i remembered tis RUDE lady whu pushed me away and looked me in e face and shouted,: SHUT UP LA!after tt i jus sat dwn, refusing to sell anymore. cos i was feelg unappreciated. e world has no kind souls. maybe a few.

one lady even smiled n asked me to hav a nice day.another few actuallie said welcome.some nice lady smiled in return.i saw tis couple whu had tons of stickers on his wallet.a few came up to me themselves to donate. another few had their little kids toss in e coins.my mother used to ask me do tt too.i guess tis r e few of e nice ppl i saw.

other than tt, its totally a disaster.i relle dunt understand how anyone cld change so much,so fast. i wishd they wld jus learn to put down grudges.stop disliking ppl over the smallest things.wished they wld learn to swallow some of their pride and bury the hatchet.i wished i dint hafta get caught in tis.

i dint feel lke toking to them cos i was angry over e throwing of my present incident. i admit. and oso cos dey're unconsciously driving ppl away frm them.first jiamein, den chiki. and maybe me. i dunno. but i guess if they're unhappy tt we joined e seefatts, den they shud hav voiced it out instead of being unhappy about it n gossipping behind us.if dey had told us, we wld hav backed out of it willingly. since its such an exclusive clique,den dey cld hav told us.i tink e sec one incident is happening all over again. only tis time,e seefatts is wad used to be the ngayee clique.

no matter what.thanks to sheena,andre,darwin,jon, maro,lilin,kerrie,nicholas,eric,qiaoying,kunpoh,jiamein,chiki and darren for wishg me happy bdae.it helped a little.thanks.

tolerance was bliss, until 2003-09-21 3:06 p.m.